I can honestly say that senior year has been the hardest thing I have had to do in my life. (and it hasn't stopped yet)
During this time in my year, I have deadlines all the time and it's just impossible to ever be done. There is always another assignment waiting for you and not letting you take a breath. Nonetheless, I believe that the worst part about senioritis is not the amount of stress that is piled on you with the huge load of work, but it is rather the effect that it has on your mental state. The amount of work that I do has reached a point to where I feel bad for relaxing. Every time I go out with my friends I always start thinking about how I could be using this time to study. If I am staying over somewhere and then wake up the next morning, I looking at the time and thinking about how the library is already open and I could be in there, studying. And honestly, the worst part is that it had developed into a vicious cycle of me understanding that I need to socialize-me wanting to socialize and go out-me being angry at myself for going out instead of studying-me wanting to socialize and go out.
It is a horrible habit that I have developed and I have absolutely no control over it. I want to enjoy my last year of high school, my last year of not being an adult, my last year of being in my home country, yet I can't.
It is a very hard time and I wish I could enjoy my life at this point more than I am enjoying right now.
However, if you are going through the same thing, I have managed to think of a few ideas that have helped me stay sane during this time period.
Firstly, get out of your house. You just have to force yourself. Go for a walk with your dog or your parents or go watch a movie with your friend. No matter how guilty you may feel, just take some time out of your day to do it.
Find a hobby and stick to it. During this time it may be very easy to let go of all your past hobbies so you would have more time to study, but trust me that's not the right choice. Everything has to come with moderation. Personally, volleyball has been a real savior for me. If not for those couple of hours I spend with my friends doing something I love, I would not be able to go through day by day with just my head in a book.
I hope this helps and if you have any tips please share them :)
Stay strong, I know you can get through anything you set your mind to
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